Sometimes I wish I could be like Doogie Howser and just sum up the things I've learned any given day in a short paragraph. I'd wrap that paragraph in shiny silver wrapping paper, put a nice shiny blue ribbon around it, and it would be pristine. Fortunately (yes, fortunately), that's not what life's all about.
I struggle with lots of things. I'm horrible at friendships, I consistently lack the motivation to do anything, and I don't take very good care of my body. Yet, through grace I survive. And eventually, thankfully, I'll get through these struggles. Sure, I'll run into new things that will pester me, but I'll be a better person for it. Without all these challenges and struggles, I'd always be the same ol' person and I'd truly get nowhere in life. No thanks.
I guess I'm writing this to apologize to everyone I know for being dysfunctional. Granted, it's part of being me, but y'all probably didn't know you were getting all this when we became friends. I'm messy. My life is a wreck. And I want to share that with each of you. It's through this messiness that you can really get a grasp of who I am and (hopefully) see that deep down inside God has blessed me with a wonderful, caring heart and that I want to share that with you. However, there's no way to get that without getting the mess. I hope you go the route less traveled, help me pick up the mess, and bask in the warmth of Christ's love.
For those that have come this far (not just in reading, but in friendship), thanks. You mean more to me than I could ever express. I don't know what I'd do without y'all. God's really blessed me with some awesome friends, though I know I don't always treat y'all like it. If I'm not treating you well, let me know. I want to know. I'll do my best to fix it. I don't want to lose any of you because I'm being a complete jerk and it's something that can be worked through. I hope you understand. Take care and God bless you all.
